Updation

Well, this is the first time writing in a while. I only remember I had one because I visited Amanda Palmer's blog. No one even knows of this blog, but who care's right? I guess last year I added some of the things I have written, but I can't tell if they are better or worse then my writings of now.

I started senior year a week ago, and it still feels weird calling myself a senior in highschool. I'm already bogged down with homework, that's honors classes for you. I am taking photo and theatre arts classes now, so that should be fun, if my IB class don't make it too stressfull.

I've written a few other "songs", but they're not ready at all yet. Since last year I've been in three performances for Boogie Music, all cover songs. Heartache Every Moment Acoustic - HIM, Waiting Acoustic - Green Day, American Idiot full band - Green Day, and this september I will be doing Over and Over acoustic by Three Days Grace. The last one will probably be my favorite.

I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain a couple of weeks ago. That was pretty fun. We got to do on all of the major rides, and skipped all of the older, little rides. I bought a cape, a hat and a shirt. Pretty cool.

Right now, I am sick with a sore throat and won't be going to school tomorrow, and I am watching Futurama. Hrm, I'm pretty boring haha.

I guess I should go to bed, so goodnight blog!

Insanity

Out on the battlefield of your mind
Struggling to survive
You wish it would just all go away
but its not that easy

Never knowing where to go
You're dodging every bullet everywhere you go
Drink the poison to escape
Or wait it out

It seems shadows are taking over
Will you make the right decision
Or make a big mistake
Time has got you by the throat

You're gasping for air
They drag you down, make you fall with them
You wish it would just all go away
You're living your nightmare...

Wanting

I used to be so strong, but not now
I've broken myself down, somehow
My shield has been taken away today
My certainty has faded away

The dark clouds move closer
Trying to take over
The heartless wind chills the bone
I'll walk this path all alone

You walked away that night
The darkness took you from sight
And now I walk this path alone
Trying to return home

Nothing will be the same
And I'm the one to blame
The little things give me away
All I wanted was you to stay

Lost

I'm trying to escape this endless suffering
But you keep opening the wounds of my heart.
I keep drowning in this burning hell called love.
I can't escape the fires you've held me in so long.

I'm dying for you
I've lost my identity.
I'm dying from your love
There's no return from this path.

Fear keeps taking over my heart
Leaving me in a shroud of darkness.
It leaves the blood cold in your veins
Forsaking the life left in your eyes.

Untitled

Dearly Beloved and Deceased,
We are separated at the seams
And it seems that even now
We are parted in our dreams
There is nothing I want more
Than to be on your side
But even now I know
It’s too late for all that now.

Love is cruel and unfair
And the flame burns with despair
It is cold as the grave
As our hearts burn with fear
Our forlorn love is placed,
In your tomb as you part
To become nothing more
Then a faded dream.

Venus runs though the veins
Soon another will be victim
To the doom of our greed
Passion’s flame burns too bright
We are smothered till no more
Demons call out for our pain.

Guilt rises with our gloom
As tears run down your face
You’re completely torn apart
But how beautiful you are
So far gone
With the tear-stained pillow
Nothing more than a shadow
Dead forever in my heart.